subtleoasis: ...taking care

Taking care. Reading through the lists of lauds written during the retreat of my high school class lead me to a gallery of questions - on spotlight was "am I really this good?" And while undergoing this process of solitude, I was struck by a clear fact - none stated my being caring. I have not been so caring. As a son, as a brother, as a friend. Yes, I've done much good, but for whom? For myself! I've not been so caring to the point of thinking less of other people. I've not been so charitable enough -to my ego, yes; to others, never. Thus, little do I care for myself. Ironic but true.

Taking chances. Risks. The world isn't binary nor it is pre-programmed. Breaks like what I'm having now slaps FREEDOM on my face. Actually, it hit me hard. RESPONSIBILITY, FOCUS, COMMITMENT and PRUDENCE - all related to choice. Opportunities abound. I had a host of them for the past year. Some of which I was too afraid to take. Yet, I dared to take them. Not all were successful but every risk I took made me a better person.

Giving LOVE. Well, the pure essence of Christmas. Love. I've been given a chance to share love to a lot of people - to my family, closest friend most especially to the unloved and less loved. :D

Happy Christmas and May Everyone Have a BLESSED NEW YEAR! :D

Labels: an attempt, christmas, introspection